i ran into paola’s video, i know that not how she feels about me now, but i want to go back to that me she was talking about in the video. BECAUSE I MISS HER TOO.
when you were troubled. i was there for you.
when im troubled is it that greedy to expect you there for me.
i guess so, because that feeling of being lonely and worthless that you explained to me this summer, by the friends you care so much about…
its whats going on to me right now.
UNFORTUNATELY you are one of my friends making me feel this way.
THANKS FOR BEING THERE…NOT
Was a life changing day. My sister, showed me her love towards her friend. Lately i have neglected my friends and pushed them away; thinking that is the only thing i could do so i wont hurt them. So i hurt myself to not hurt them. I miss my friends, so so so so so much. Like describing it makes my heart hurt. Never thought i would lose them, but i never did, and reality case i never will. but my point is i thought i lost my friends but really i pushed them away and i kept away. my sister is losing her BEST FRIEND, like literally losing her day by day, my sister cried her little heart out. i dont even understand how she could be not crying right now… Her friend, is hurt and is hurting; it is not my secret to tell to anyone. yet i have to say one thing about her, her name is Kendal and out of ALL of my sisters friend something in my heart told me to take of her like my sister, with love from a family. i figured out, that she doesnt have such a great life, so i wanted to make her feel like im her older sister and were her second family.
ALL i wanted to say is, I love my little sister and im so blessed for her to be healthy. And i am so proud of watching her grow into this BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY.
